Pray fervently to God that your MOTIVES may be right. Pray earnestly for His help to search your own heart and make it right. We may spend a busy lifetime doing great things for God and the Truth and His people, and get paeans of ego-building praise from everyone--except God. This is why "many that are first shall be last." If our motives are tinged with self and pride and gratification of the flesh, then all our life's labors are less than worthless: worse than doing nothing at all, for it puts us deeper into the flesh than ever. Help must come from above. The flesh is so deceptive that unguided man cannot discern his own motives, let alone correct them. A truly humble Bible student with spiritual discernment, is embarrassed by praise. It makes him acutely uncomfortable, for he realizes how pitifully puny his highest "accomplishments" are. If we enjoy praise, we are in danger. If we seek praise, we are practically hopeless. If we cannot be happy without praise, we are just about a basket case, spiritually. But there is always hope, if we study the Word continuously, and continuously seek God's help at self-analysis and self-searching. However, it will take a major and spiritual growing up, like getting rid of fat after a lifetime of babyish self-indulgence.